Experimentation
I have been trying to engage with different platforms to share my works. I tried Wattpad as a teenager but realized only dark-romance and smut work. Very few good books came out of it and eventually, I lost interest in it. Then a year ago, I wanted to start writing again—beyond merely working on my novels so I found something called Substack. Funny how the word 'Substack' is not a recognized work on Substack.
That aside, I wrote. I wrote on Substack kind of frequently and the but it as place where you need to have a niche to make the algorithms push your work. It is just like any other social media and you need to bow to the algorithm lords.
I tried. I tried to build a niche to talk about but, it didn't work. I am multi-passionate and it is difficult to sustain on writing platforms when you haven't confined yourself to a subject. I want to discuss about sports, pop culture, fashion, art, stories, history, future, health, and what not.
Being curious and wanting to be learned in different things is barely seen because we are deemed "confused".
I have always been curious about many different things in life—from under water life to futuristic realms. I believe in science but also am curious about magic. Life is meant to be lived. I hate that I need to find a niche to be found across any for my writing platform.
This is how many people bottle themselves up into one identity, without ever exploring every interest that they have. This goes with every aspect in life—from fashion to food.
I tend to wear oversized clothes but, love seeing other women be so comfortable in their skin when they wear revealing outfits. I want to do that but I tend to fear judgement. That is one of the many experimentations I want to do.
I want to try different sports, musical instruments, professions, and even read novels from vastly different genres.
I want to be well learned because I want to be able to hold conversations with people from different backgrounds. We can only learn from others when we know something from the subject. They get excited so see people interested in their subject and yet when I come on to the internet and decide to share something, I see that the algorithms just push works of already popular people.
From mainstream social media to smaller platforms, it is the niched accounts that are celebrated and eventually some or the other tries to make the smaller platforms popular and their sloppy recycled trends.
So here I am.
Writing into what sometimes feels like a wall.
Maybe no one reads this. Maybe a handful of people do. Either way, I want this space to remain mine—a place where I can write freely without worrying whether today's topic fits yesterday's audience.
Some days I'll talk about books. Other days it might be football, history, fashion, artificial intelligence, outer space, planned obsolescence, or whatever thought refuses to leave my mind. My fictional work will still explore darker, more adult themes because that's another part of me too.
And yes, occasionally, I might rant about how disingenuous people seem to get opportunities while genuinely talented people are overlooked.
Because that's life.
Messy. Contradictory. Interesting.
I'm done trying to squeeze every part of myself into a single niche just to satisfy an algorithm.
I'd rather spend my life experimenting.
Which is something I still learning to do because I still fear judgement. I don't know when I'll get over it but I want to be completely myself in terms of the way I dress to the jobs I do. i want try everything that interests me.
I want to write books of varying genres—romance to sci-fi, contemporary to adult fiction. I want to experiment as a writer. I might publish them under pseudonyms to have a different identity as a writer but, I do want to set the stories within me free.
I used to be ashamed that I had stories within me which would classify as adult content only but, I have grown to accept that part of me. I used to cringe writing kissing scenes in my romance novels and now, I have an on going draft which will be exploring deeper themes of polyamory, casual relationships, and a woman inclining into her sensual desires.
Let's see where this experiment of mine goes. And this