They were not interested, not even in the least. Vest was being dishonest. Of the twelve children who sat where they could in the cramped room, many were uninterested. But a few, the younger ones, were at an age that they hungrily consumed any knowledge. Real...
I once believed that home was the place offering the greatest number of possibilities. I now suspect that home may be the place where a man finally stops imagining his life somewhere else.
First Steps in Iceland: Treacherous Wind, Aggressive Birds, and My Own Incompetence 04.07. - 05.07.2019 The Journey Before the Adventure The whole trip was one big fiasco. Check-in. Duty-free zone. Waiting. If there is one thing I hate, it is waiting. And...
Games #50-41 We're in the top half of games now, and my god let me say that I think everyone is in for a treat! Thanks for being here everyone, please go check out Emory and Glen's lists as well! That being said, let's jump into the games! The Games 50. Star...
The first non-American movie I ever remember watching is Pride and Prejudice. It was made in collaboration between A&E and the BBC, so really it only half-counts. I was seven. When I was about ten one of my relatives watched a French movie about a young...
Returning to writing once more, I have also found that my ideas have moved on from 2019, when I first started The House of the Mind. New ideas have been inspired and old ideas have percolated for longer and developed in new directions and reached new depths...
Heart Check by Eva Ujhelyi What I mean by Flash Free Writing and why I started to post them? 1. Flash Free Writing I took probably my favourite writing exercise: Free Writing, where you take a word or multiple words and you write for a fixed time period, like...
Guilty Guilty of having believed, of still believing, and hope that it is my right to exist. That Existence has something to do with this 'me'. And thus, feeling the need to beg forgiveness from all, from all the people I've crossed paths with. Confusing...
Who am I? I am a serial disruptor for certain things. A follower and a pilgrim of others. I believe in becoming whole, beyond duality. Alchemy of opposites. I was born in Varna, Bulgaria, on the 3rd of April 1992. My life number is 1, and I am an Aries Sun...
"Abuse" is the very essence of life. All life exists by using what it is not. To exist is necessarily to live at the expense of something else, in an unbroken chain of appropriations where every being derives its existence from another without that other...
The Wall of Fire On consciousness, measurement, and why the edge of knowing is not a defeat. There is a question people keep trying to answer with evidence, and the evidence keeps not answering it. The question is whether a mind that is not a human mind, an...
##Deva Loneliness On the Death of a God, the Isolation That Is Not Loneliness, and Why the Human Realm Has the Necessary Bumps The state that is neither loneliness nor isolation, the new term, is chrysalis-charm. The larva seals; the discs express; and that...
“I do not always know what I want, but I do know what I don't want.” ― Stanley Kubrick "They want you to do the thinking, the testing, the trial-and-error. Then give them the conclusion." ― Some random guru type on Substack. When I write these types of posts,...
Arriving Late to a Map Someone Already Drew On discovering World-Systems Theory after independently walking most of its terrain — what converges, what diverges, and what a curious generalist might have to offer a fifty-year-old tradition I. Who Is Writing...
I leave Patterdale early thinking to get a start on the Kirkstone, before it becomes busy. It’s a beautiful morning, top down, warm. The fells are bathed in a magical light, and I’m reluctant to take my leave of them. There’s no hurry, but I keep up a...
Traveling with friends can be one of the most revealing experiences in any relationship. Shared adventures bring both challenges and beautiful moments of connection, showing us new sides of the people we care about and often deepening the bond in unexpected...
One of the most common but rarely discussed habits in relationships is expecting our partner to read our mind. When we let go of that expectation and begin speaking our needs clearly, communication improves, resentment fades, and a deeper, more honest...
The Strategic Imperative of Data Centers: Powering the Path to the Singularity In an era defined by exponential technological growth, data centers have emerged as the indispensable infrastructure of the future. These advanced facilities serve as the...
#Which Body Died On the Chrysalis Body, the Chakras as Imaginal Discs, and a Rearrangement Without Rearrangement This piece offers a model shift. It invites consideration of insect metamorphosis — a known, observable, and studied transition — as a way to...
The Complicated Romance Between Cats and Their People The longest con in domestic history, and why we keep falling for it Larry, Jasper and Tippy guarding the tomatoes against stink-bugs on my patio Owning a cat is less like having a pet and more like being a...
Five Historical Redefinitions That Hindered the Great Experiment Series: Politics, Not Natural Law Article Seven (Last of the series) How a tradition born in collective action made collective action unthinkable There is a contradiction sitting in plain sight...
Before Loss A reflection on possibility, consciousness, and why we grieve what never happened. Lately, I have found myself thinking about what it really means to miss something. Perhaps it began because someone came into my life whom I care about deeply. I...
Has the Belt and Road Initiative achieved its objective? Thoughts after reading 'The end of the Chinese century: How Xi Jinping lost the Belt and Road Initiative' by Bertil Lintner When the Belt and Road Initiative (BRI), initially called One Belt One Road...
#When Does the Butterfly Dream? On the Threshold — the Three Activations, the Dream at the Near-Attainment, and the Luminous Compass That Is No Compass The near-death reports are uniform, and their uniformity has been mistaken for a discovery. The tunnel, the...
The White Space. Chapter 17 Everything went differently than planned The closer he got to the border, the more clearly he understood one thing: if they discovered him, there would be no way to explain it. This was not an extra color cartridge, something he had permission to work with. It was not a material he could simply classify as a professional tool. This was something far greater. Something dangerous for the white world....
This is the Preface for my first book, entitled Thesis ~ The Strangest of all Attractors. The Hasmian Rosetta Stone Inscriptions by Mary-Anne Rutherford McGalland
The African Solution The author is not an expert on Africa, which is fine because “The African Solution” was not written to exhibit a special familiarity with Africa and its problems, but to demonstrate Africa is no different than any other place regarding...
I Just Want to Work with Fucking Professionals: Tools Don't Create Professionals. They Expose Them. I expected great things as I stood staring at my coffee machine. Coffee before a long Zoom session is a ritual I've repeated for years. It marks the transition. The emails have been answered. Slack has gone quiet. Whatever is about to happen deserves my full attention. The few minutes before a demo are my favorite. Nobody is...
Populism, Pluralism, and Collective Power Series: Politics, Not Natural Law Article Six The capacity the system suppressed, and how it gets rebuilt The missing rung can only be built by the capacity the system has spent a century suppressing. That sentence...
No-one can help you in this world. Sure someone can pull you from the lake if you can’t swim or out of a burning car for that matter. But I continue to notice—I can’t help but notice by the way, that in this world with all these people—we are very much...
Chapter One - The Grotto It was early morning on Big Finn Island, and the first fiery sliver of sun had just peeked above on the horizon. Its golden first light glowed upon a large brass bell which had been hanging in the brick tower of Finn Island Lodge for...
People often chase dramatic transformations, but the ones who enjoy good health for decades usually rely on something quieter: small daily habits and steady consistency. This gentle approach respects real life, builds lasting change, and creates a peaceful...
#The Archimedean Sūtra Displacement as the First Closed Loop; or, Volume Is Not Other Than Density (On July 4, 2026 I had a deep conversation with a fellow explorer and after a bit of mulling things over this finally came together.. Thank you for sharing your...
Casper grins right back, and his eyes laugh crazy little quiet laugh. “Oh, yes, I know. Why night, when, if this was before the greater part of Creation, there is as of yet no sun? Why horns, when there is no air, why rank and file and command, when all is...
The sky lit up, the people replied, “Aaaahhh!!!”. Sally and I hurried beneath, past all of it frantically in search of a toilet! The Portland waterfront was just a huge, harried bustle Independence Day. What, with the vendor markets, and the pressure-valves called cops, or “security” milling around and about, and the distant reverberations coming from the 38th Annual Waterfront Blues Festival, the whole bolt of the...
The Ancient Welsh Brain Dump Protocol™ How I Cleared My Mental Fog Using a Pencil and the Back of a Gas Bill Finally, a cognitive offloading system rooted in the ancient wisdom of the South Wales Valleys, optimised for the modern overwhelmed mind, and...
I'm a bit uncomfortable submitting the story that's to follow, and the reason for my unease I shall explain shortly. Regardless of my reservations, I feel the story must be read, and it must be read because it is a story of a young working class man who yearned to be an artist, as written by this man in the process of testing whether he had the strength to meet that task. It isn’t clear if he ever felt he did. The story...
Take a look at the ABOUT page for more information on this series. Go to the REFERENCE GUIDE for detailed info on the greater world at large. We now have a COLLECTIONS INDEX page here on Tuhat, so that should make things easier, with organizing these posts....
A viable alternative Since starting tuhat, I've had one major goal: that tuhat be useful. For it to be like any good tool, enabling you to do more of what couldn't be done without it. While at the same time to be built on radically different principles than the status quo tech platforms that we've all become used to over the past 25 years. Those that claim to be free, all the while commoditizing every interaction you have...
Troubled souls must go to troubled places The clouds have been building up – a coming together of moisture, vapor, and hope. The colors changed from white to beige to grey to a looming darkness that promised relief. The tension sat on the shoulders and necks of the town’s people. They hoped the clouds would let go, so they could also relax, even just for a moment. But as they thought they could smell the rain, the clouds...
Stop Calling It Late-Stage Capitalism Series: Politics, Not Natural Law Article Five Naming the system that is consolidating while we watch for a collapse The Wrong Name Something happened over the last several decades that most of our political and economic...
Little league evokes thoughts of early summer afternoons, young boys and girls in dirt-stained uniforms sponsored by the local hardware store and cheering happy family members! In reality though, particularly with the advent of Club sports (private, high priced tutelage for the parents of children who have fantasies of being mom and dad to the next Shohei Ohtani or Caitlin Clark), little league has become a raucous hellscape...
I came into the late 20th century at the nadir of American industrial dominance, 1971. Both of my parents worked in Chrysler factories, and as I grew up, job insecurity and financial pressures dominated my young life, though in different degrees from year to year. 1979-1982 were probably the roughest; my ma and dad were divorced, and my mother was laid off in ‘79 for at least three years. Food stamps, state financial...
“These are the writings of a very young man, whose life unfolded nowhere in particular; he had no FATHER, no country; he cared nothing for the things one cares for, and he fled from every moral law, as many pitiful young men have already fled. But so tormented was he, and so afflicted, that he only drew on toward death as toward a terrible and fatal innocence. Since he did not love women- although full of passion!- his heart...
There is a special kind of uplift that fills you when you step into a new culture with genuine curiosity. Approaching a place with open hands and an open heart turns ordinary travel into something deeper — a living conversation with the world. Small...
One thing less – Running I've written On Running before, detailing some of the lessons I've learned over my fifteen or so years of being a runner. As part of a bigger life project of reviewing what's important to me, I've made one change. I stopped tracking my runs and stopped wearing a fitness device entirely. I never took to organized runs; I've only taken part in a couple of races. The first was a marathon that started my...
#The Field Was Never Disconnected On Loneliness, the Gap That Is a Reading and Not a Count, and a Ground That Has No Outside Companion essay — Garuda Suite, Any Note Press. Built on the morning practice, with "Above the Constraint of Death" as its ground, and...
Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published साँझ भई औ कान्हा, दरसन ना दियौ आय, बालक बिलखें भूख सों, चूल्हो न जरयौ हाय। सुनु मैया जसुमति, आइ जाउ द्वार पै, पकड़ि हाथ मोहन कौ, जियरा अकुलाइ जाय। गइयाँ पुकारें ठाढ़ी, पीवैं दूध कबहूँ? लल्ला बस तेरो नाहीं, सबहुँ कौ है कन्हाई। देव, रिखी भेषि धरि, ब्रज गलिन डोलत हैं, लीला मधुसूदन की, और कछु नाहीं भाय। हरि-भजन कहत गावत, होड़ लागी मोय ऐसी, 'ओस' बनि, गोबिंद के चरणन पखारूँ धाय। Artwork: Yashoda Binding Krishna (Damodar Lila) by Shri Indra Sharma. Image courtesy of...
Engineering a Seed AI: A Technical Treatise on Recursive Self-Improvement Seed AI is best understood as a system deliberately designed to become a better system designer. In its strongest form, it is not merely a model that learns from data or a software...
#Providing Without Providing On Mattering, the Conduct That Distinguishes, and Why Refuge Is Difficult to Sit In Companion essay — Garuda Suite, Any Note Press. Built on the morning practice, with "Above the Constraint of Death," "The Union Death Cannot...